Had I known who I was going to be born to....I would have been born earlier so I don't have to fear losing my mother when I am in my 30s.
Had I known I would be blessed with the World s best brother.....I would never have fought when we were kids.
Had I known that I would miss my grandmother so much, I never would have let her go to Colombo in her last stages.
Had I known that I would think about my dad so much in my late 20s and 30s, I would have been nicer to him.
Had I known that I would be head over heals in love with my friend from primary school who is also my very first crush, I never would have quit searching.
Had I known about Sexual abuse as a child like how my kids know about it now, I never would have gone to that neighbour's house only to feel used and fear gripping all over me.
Had I known to share with elders or seek help, I never would have allowed them to spoil my innocence.
Had I known that my teenage crush proposed to me just to win over a bet with friends, I never would have woken up at 4am often just to go for a morning walk.
Had I known to give a kick on the balls of that old bastard, I would have the very first time he touched me where he should not have, instead I waited for a couple of years to muster courage.
Had I known to say NO, I would have the minute my doc tried to misbehave in the most unsuspecting manner.
Had I known what it is to get really high marks and be a topper, I would never have studied a day before exams and still end up getting a 1st class. I probably would have put in efforts from Day 1.
Had I known that I would develop love for singing, I would have listened to Appa and continued to learn Music.
Had I known that my relationship with a guy in my late teens would turn sour, I would have let myself get caught by my dad when he saw us, instead of going into a hiding.
Had I known that there would be a big rift between my best friend and I, never would have gotten so close to her. Memories are afresh but hurts.....
Had I known that I would find one of my best friends at the age of 20, I would have spent more quality time.
Had I known I would find a soul mate in a friend at 21, would have tried to be friendly with her from the age of 16.
Had I known I would find the love of my life online.....never would have logged that night only to be hurt at the end.
Life has taken a round about post that and I hope I muster up courage to write more later.
If only we had known what was in store for us, it would have been more rosy if only we could change what is destined for us. Now that we know we can do no shit about it, why even think. Thinking of Life's lessons learnt the hard way. Some turned me into the positive person that I am and some instilled the negativity that I carry around too.
But I for sure know that my positive vibes are much more than the negativity. If all of us can take every single distress call as a learning experience, life would be so much better.
Thinking about these lessons and some of them I really wish to erase off my memory. These are times when I wish to go back and rewrite history.
Had I known.......I would have been better.
Had I known I would be blessed with the World s best brother.....I would never have fought when we were kids.
Had I known that I would miss my grandmother so much, I never would have let her go to Colombo in her last stages.
Had I known that I would think about my dad so much in my late 20s and 30s, I would have been nicer to him.
Had I known that I would be head over heals in love with my friend from primary school who is also my very first crush, I never would have quit searching.
Had I known about Sexual abuse as a child like how my kids know about it now, I never would have gone to that neighbour's house only to feel used and fear gripping all over me.
Had I known to share with elders or seek help, I never would have allowed them to spoil my innocence.
Had I known that my teenage crush proposed to me just to win over a bet with friends, I never would have woken up at 4am often just to go for a morning walk.
Had I known to give a kick on the balls of that old bastard, I would have the very first time he touched me where he should not have, instead I waited for a couple of years to muster courage.
Had I known to say NO, I would have the minute my doc tried to misbehave in the most unsuspecting manner.
Had I known what it is to get really high marks and be a topper, I would never have studied a day before exams and still end up getting a 1st class. I probably would have put in efforts from Day 1.
Had I known that I would develop love for singing, I would have listened to Appa and continued to learn Music.
Had I known that my relationship with a guy in my late teens would turn sour, I would have let myself get caught by my dad when he saw us, instead of going into a hiding.
Had I known that there would be a big rift between my best friend and I, never would have gotten so close to her. Memories are afresh but hurts.....
Had I known that I would find one of my best friends at the age of 20, I would have spent more quality time.
Had I known I would find a soul mate in a friend at 21, would have tried to be friendly with her from the age of 16.
Had I known I would find the love of my life online.....never would have logged that night only to be hurt at the end.
Life has taken a round about post that and I hope I muster up courage to write more later.
If only we had known what was in store for us, it would have been more rosy if only we could change what is destined for us. Now that we know we can do no shit about it, why even think. Thinking of Life's lessons learnt the hard way. Some turned me into the positive person that I am and some instilled the negativity that I carry around too.
But I for sure know that my positive vibes are much more than the negativity. If all of us can take every single distress call as a learning experience, life would be so much better.
Thinking about these lessons and some of them I really wish to erase off my memory. These are times when I wish to go back and rewrite history.
Had I known.......I would have been better.
